THE ALTER EGO

HNS MNRH

Weirdest wish ever. I knew, i always wanted ‘this’ from the very beginning of everything, only i couldn’t realised it untill recently. Insyaallah, i’ll make it come true and prove it’s not that weird afterall.

Off the radar.

Black out. 

#np Stay-Henri Krinkle

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Black out.

#np Stay-Henri Krinkle

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I tried to stop.
But there’s monster.
Inside me.
I tried.

I tried.
Tried to be comfortable.
Comfortable with who i’m.
But it just doesn’t feels right.
Something is missing.
I tried.
But then, it’s always easy to be said than to be done.
Always.

It is weird. I don’t feel like i feel before.

Urghh I hate so much to think that I have to put my life on others. Why can’t I do it myself, my way? Why can’t I have that capabilities? Why do I need to depends on the others? This is not even the worst part. 

Since this is my alter ego account, I has a secret to tell you. I actually LOVE playing with my make up and dressing up for nothing. Har har har  I couldn’t do much of it now. I’m afraid my family and my room-mates would think I’m a freak and weird girl. huhh I hate it so much when I have to hide the girlish part of me. I have to act like don’t care about my appreance because everyone else around me didn’t do so. I hate when i buy high heels i couldn’t wear it because I don’t want people to tease me since I’m the only one here love it and they teased me for wearing high heels because I’m shorter. I hate when i buy blusher and I can’t use it because I don’t see as over do it. I hate when I can be myself. So so so much. I miss doing make up, dolly around for one day. huhh

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